There was this little girl who ONCE thought that life and fairytale is the SAME.
PERFECT family, CURABLE problems, and HAPPY endings.
NO complications, everything is SIMPLE…
Then this day CAME that everything she thought was just her imagination. Her parents fought and quarell a LOT.
They SHOUTED, and BACKSTABBED, and CURSED at each other.
She SAW it all because she was always in FRONT of them WATCHING and crying and THINKING why are they doing those things.
Why are they IGNORING her?
She could not understand because She was just a LITTLE girl!
OBLIVIOUS from so many complications.
It went on.
Until ONE day.
One of her parents attempted to END those temporary problems with a PERMANENT solution.
Turned out it was unsuccessful.
It was STOPPED.
Seconds before it was too late.
She was CONFUSED.
The hell she was CONFUSED!
She wanted to KNOW and UNDERSTAND the situation.
But did not know
What to SAY,
What to FEEL,
Who to ASK.
To WHOM should she talk?
Her YOUNGER sister whose half her age?
Her FRIENDS just young as she was?
Her parents who had their own sh*t going on?
She felt lost and ALONE.
She felt IGNORED, that no one would even explain something to her.
Those problems remained unfixed.
A tragedy happened…
And another PROBLEM happened.
WHAT did she do?
She sucked up all those sh*tiness.
She IGNORE those huge elephants in the room.
She did not open those skeletons in the closet.
She was deeply affected.
The little girl GREW up.
She now knows life is full of complications.
She refrain from
Telling her STORIES.
Afraid she might be ignored AGAIN,
She became QUIET.
Because she thinks it will prevent complications.
It will prevent her from getting HURT and hurting someone.
Just like she was hurt BEFORE.
She doesn‘t want to FEEL that way AGAIN.
She became PASIVE.
She grew up.
But deep inside she was STILL this little girl.
Craving for ANSWERS.
Wanting to be HEARD and SEEN.
NOT being ignored.
Wanting to CHOOSE to be happy.
She wants to believe in happy endings again, AT LEAST.
Because she knows that life is NOT perfect.
Life is full of questions.
LIFE IS FULL OF EVERYTHING.
So if you see this girl,
TRY to understand where she‘s coming from.
Don‘t judge her.
Be PATIENT with her.
DON‘T leave her.
She just WANT somebody to comfort her.
To be with her.
To tell her everythings‘s going to be ALRIGHT.
Because BELIEVE me,
She TOLD her that to herself.
ALL THE TIME.
Still, nothing‘s changed.
She TRIED to be better.
She TRIED to change.